Emotional Thinkers

Its annoying when people insist that you're emo but actually you're not. I don't know if you get what I mean, but here's a typical situation:

Human : Eh cessa, why so emo wan??
Me : Who said? I'm not lah
Human: Then what's with the face?
Me: What face? I'm just thinking
Human: OOHH.. Emo lah
Me: No, not emo lah. *sighs to indicate that person to shut it*
Human : Ahh.. then I leave you alone.
Me : Thanks. *finally!*

Human walks away.

See??

I don't blame these clueless people but there are times that you just want to sit and be alone. And mind you, I love being alone. Though having people isn't so bad after all. Some of my friends sometimes find it so hard to relate to me because I'll be all happy and super hyper one minute and then quiet and withdrawn the next.
And no, I'm not suffering a psychological disease.
At least according to my dad ;-)

Silence is golden. * I can almost anticipate Mr. Higgins humming already*

So next time you see a person being emo, just smile. If they smile back, good. Then you can try to start a conversation. But if they stare at you murderously, STAY AWAY!!

At least thats applied in my case

:-)

HHRS: This is for YOU

Friendship was when you believed in me even when I did not believe in myself.

Its gonna take a long, long, long time till we reach this stage but hey, throw me a challenge? I'm up for it! I won't stop believing and hoping.
Love comes softly. After all, its not an emotion. Its a commitment and sacrifice.
So I'm sacrificing my feelings.
Too bad the world doesn't see it that way.

St. Mary - a school to remember

So it looks like my days in St. Mary's are over. This whole week was basically a time to remember all the great times and not-so-great times I had these past five years in St. Mary. I still remember stepping in to St. Mary, a quiet loner who was more interested in her writings than being somebody. But after five years, I've emerged a more confident and outspoken person, more outgoing and have developed good leadership skills. I didn't know I was capable of leadership.

But nevertheless, I'm a still a loner. Yet, I've had great people who walked in and out during these five years and have taught me that friendship is not always sweet. You have to work to keep the friendship alive. Like you're protecting and tending a flower.





St. Mary really moulded me into who I am today. Though I'll be honest that there were some things I didn't quite agree with the school, I guess nobody's perfect lah. So thank God I managed to kept myself from having a black mark.

I am proud of St. Mary and I want St. Mary to be proud of me

Cookie plans...yummy!!

I've decided to rethink my life. After doing the S-H-A-P-E during CLDP 301, these are the gifts that I discovered about myself :

1. Counseling
2. Leadership
3. Miracles

The three primary gifts and somehow, I think 1 and 2 are true but I'm not too sure of 3. Miracles??? WOW!!

So thats why I was thinking a lot and I discovered that instead of wasting these gifts and talents away...I should do something about it.

I'm still praying if I should take Psychology. I feel led to do so but I'll still pray and seek the Lord about it. Once SPM is over, I hope I can go for more camps to sharpen my leadership skills and build character. Though I'm hoping that SUFES will have the writer's camp again next year seeing as I have to miss this year's due to SPM ;-(

I can't wait for college cause I want to be invloved in extra-curricular activites like how I was very involved in school. Indeed, St. Mary has shaped me to be capable of leadership responsibilities and I think that college will be a good platform to maximise my talents.

Looks like I'll be a super busy person once next year rolls on.

I don't know why people think its a joke that I want to work in Famous Amos. I LOVE COOKIES!!!! Even if I have to assemble them and sell them, it doesn't matter because its the love for cookies that counts. ( you should try my choco chip cookies, they're excellent! ;-P )

8 days left to SPM.

I CAN'T WAIT!!

Music comes Alive

My sister is such a darling!
You know why?? YOU KNOW WHY???? *forgive me for being so excited*
She fixed my piano music box.
Thats why.

My mom gave it to me last time and I used to play it whenever I wrote poems or short stories. All I had to do was open the lid and "Fur Elise" - Beethoven would play.
Then one day, this little girl (I won't tell you who she is cause many of you know her) came into my room when I was at school and played with it. And broke it. So it sat on my shelf for one whole year and I didn't know what to do with it.

Today, my SISTA found it and with her engineer brain, fixed it and it played beautifully. My sister is good at fixing things. Once she fixed our car's tail lights and our remote control.
That part she inherited from my mother's side of the family tree.



I added the hair brush for an old-fashioned romantic effect. My beloved music box!!!

If I had money, I would buy a cello music box that played "The Swan" - by Saint Saens. My second favourite composer. And I would buy a dancing ballerina music box that plays "Dance of the Sugar Plum Fairy" - by Tchaikovsky.

Those two songs are my favourite classical songs.

Its so romantic and it allows my mind to dream the impossible.

THANK YOU, CHELLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Going Solo

I've been solo for 2 years...
Probably will be for the next 6 years...

Enjoy your single life...

Do the things God wants you to do, whatever He has placed in your heart...

Have as many friends as you can...

Travel around the world...

Expand your creativity and knowledge...

Life is great. When you're single.

The second last week of High School

I've got one week left in St. Mary.
How time has flown by. Yesterday during school leavers' service, I was still marvelling that God gave me the boldness to share my testimony to the entire school.
Wow.
:-)

So, I decided that I'm gonna eat all my favourite foods from the canteen for the next one week since all I eat in the canteen is just "buah-buahan".
Healthy option ;-)

Class party is next week. I'll try to post some pictures....wow.
My last class party.


*sobs*
*sobs again*

Thank God I'm a loner. At least the pain of separation isn't that bad. But I'm gonna miss my classmates. They're great friends.

I still remember the time in Form 4 when they dared me to shut up for a week since I'm such a noisy freak. I didn't make it.
My personality is so phlegmatic-melancholic yet I have a sanguine side. I haven't discovered my choleric side yet.

One more week in ST. MARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!