Separation

Oh, finally it connected!

Yay, today is practically the last day of exam and only Sejarah ( paper 1 - no biggie ) and Bible Knowledge.
Then I'm FREE AT LAST!!!!

I'm gonna do lots of things after exam-despite studying for SPM next year (yawn...)- and I am SO NOT looking forward to attending "the other church". I mean, I have so many great friends over at KD and we have bonded so well and grown closer. Suddenly, I have to up and LEAVE!!! OHHHH....I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!

I don't like leaving people who have made an impact in my life. And I really think that I will not fit in as a youth in "the other church". When my dad announced his decision, I was like "NO WAY I'M LEAVING!!!!" but still being under their care and shelter, do I look like I have a choice????

My last Christmas in KD. After two years, I cannot bear the thought of leaving.
I just can't *weep*

When the offence slip attacks...

I sometimes think that I made a mistake in being a prefect.
Whoa...whats a goody-two-shoes like me saying such things?

Well, if you're gonna say 'I-told-you-so' in just a splitsecond, then I shall just pretend that the wall just talked to me. I mean, I hate those four words! Like the time when I broke up with YL last year, my dad was all "See? I told you it won't work out right? Listen lah, next time" and I was like growling at my dad for saying it since it was almost similar to it. Oh well, thanks dad. I really meant it.

My dirty secret in being a prefect is that sometimes I just want to rebel. Like the time I ... ( I don't want to say further incase it might hurt my rep) There are times that I just want to go up to Pn. Ganaser and say that I want to quit.

When I was in freshman year, I didn't know why the hoot I was idolizing prefetcs and wishing I was like them. Then as the years went on, I GREW UP. I wanted to be who I was and I know who I am is not a prefect. I don't like being clamped. Being a spirited artist ( writing, that is ) I suddenly saw the world in a different way and not how I used to gawkishly. I look at myself sometimes and I'm like "Eh cessa! When did you start being so liberal and rebellious?"

I mean, I 'm not like the type that are the kurang ajar kind of rebel but the type that rebels inside. I internalize it and be emo and after a while, I'm okay. Thank God for that. I wouldn't want to rebel so much till I have forgotten my spiritual roots.


I've always been a goody-goody. Let people rule over me and boss me around too much ( I mean, authouritative people are exempted ) till I sometimes forget that I have a life too! People my age sometimes see me as weird 'cause I may be different. I know, 'cause I have overheard some things.....so I'm like 'Okay, since you think I'm so freaky and all...don't bother being a "friend" '


Prefect or not prefect?
I still don't know.

Oh well, I am praying about it and I'll see what HE has to say about the issue lah.

Mabelfudge's next anticipated movie...after HSM3, that is

I've read the book and it was awesome! Well, if you're not the romantic-cum-suspense type...then don't bother watching the movie when it comes out! :P








Can't Wait!

Enjoying every moment

I seem to think that my exams are over. Instead of studying, I'm watching way too much TV, reading, listening to music and playing with my cousin Rhianna. Oh yeah, she's a handful but I can handle her. Maybe thats why young kids flock over my sister all the time. Ha!

I think its like almost 2 a.m. and I'm still online. Oh well, I only get that kind of privellege when I'm in my uncle's place. He's quite cool about it. My parents are more strict when it comes to the internet... ( um..hello? I'm not allowed to watch YouTube, you know! ) 'cause of all the influence out there. Oh well, I'm with my cousins sleepover at my uncle's place and well...they're asleep.

Except me.

Ooops, battery dying.
Will blast back in 20.

My case of top 10s

Top ten songs I can listen to over and over again:

1. ''Get Back" by Demi Lovato
2. "I Wanna Be Like You" by The Jonas Brothers
3. "Crush" by David Archuleta
4. "Forever" by Chris Brown
5. "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz
6. "Take Me Away" by Natasha Beddingfield
7. "Shake It" by Metro Station
8. "Disturbia" by Rihanna
9. "I Still Believe" by Hayden Panettiere
10. 'Thats What You Get" by Paramore

Top ten books I LURVVEEE!!!:

1. "Tuesdays With Morrie" by Mitch Albom
2. "Twilight" by Stephenie Meyer
3. "If You Could See Me Now" by Cecelia Ahern
4. "Holes" by Louis Sachar
5. "Avalon High" by Meg Cabot
6. "Pride and Prejudice" by Jane Austen
7. " A Midsummer Night's Dream" by William Shakespeare
8. "Teen Idol" by Meg Cabot
9. "Street Boys" by Lorenzo Carcaterra
10. "The 7 Habits oh Highly Effective Teens" by Sean Covey

Top ten criterias I like in a guy:

1. His BROAD shoulders
2. His hair ( thick and black! )
3. He can sing well ( and in tune! ) and play the piano-or the guitar!-
4. His sense of humuour and who can tell lame jokes.
5. He loves knowledge and is not afraid to speak his mind
6. He is a CHRISTIAN. Loves God, the people around him and himself ( not the narcissistic type, that is! )
7. He's spontaneous and good people skills
8. The type that LISTENS!
9. STRAIGHTFORWARD
10. His dazzling, charming, alluring, amazing, heart-melting, spine shivering SMILE!

Top ten THINGS I wish I had:

1. A copy of my self-written, PUBLISHED novel
2. A good laptop
3. The power of being telekinetic so I don't have to get up if I need something ( LAZY PIG!! )
4. My own guitar so I don't have to practise on my dad's old, rosak one
5. A bigger room
6. Spontaneity
7. A device that will remind me to SHUT UP when I start talking too much
8. A persian cat
9. Blemish-free, clear, flawless face
10. My previous hairstyle ( with the emo gesture of my hair covering my eyes )

Top Ten Celebrities I hate the most!!:

1. Paris Hilton ( practically NOTHING inside that head of hers! )
2. Flo-Rida ( he's SICK!!!! )
3. Lindsay Lohan ( detest lesbians!! )
4. Brad Pitt ( He's not all that hot, you know! )
5. Katy Perry ( hello...need I say much?? )
6. Kanye West
7. Gym Class Heroes
8. Gerard Way ( don't ask me why! )
9. Nicole Scherzinger ( S.L.U.T. )
10. AKON

Top ten things I weirdly do:

1. Read "Seventeen" from back to front
2. Mindlessly bring an empty ice-crem stick up to my room
3. Arrange ingredients neatly on my spoon when devouring a delicious bowl of 'curry pan mee' ( YUMMMMYYYY!!!!! )
4. Gaze at Mr. Loke when he's teaching Physics ( please DO NOT confront me about this! )
5. A spoilt moonwalk when I randomly get a groove
6. Doing silly faces in the mirror
7. Saying random phrases at the wrong time ( example: "because cows Moo" while a quiet moment during Math class )
8. Speaking with an american-surfer-dude accent when talking to Weng Yian
9. Calling Chai Yeen "chinese" instead of her name. I'm not being racist, okay? "Chai-Yeen, Chai-Nese"? You get it?
10. Torment Neermala with my sudden dramatic expressions

Top Ten foods I love:

1. Pizza
2. Chocolate Fudge brownies/cookies
3. Curry Pan Mee
4. Char Kuey Teow
5. Poori with Chicken Curry
6. Masala Chicken
7. Watermelon
8. I SCREAM!!! ( Get it?? Lame, I know )
9. Squid Sambal
10. Fast Food
11. And many, many more!!!! Hey, I'm MALAYSIAN!

Top Ten Fave TV Shows:

1. The Nanny
2. Hannah Montana
3. The Suite Life of Z AND C ( its hillarious!!! )
4. ER
5. Sue Thomas F.B. Eye
6. Wizards of Waverly Place
7. Phil of the Future ( I know it doesn't play on cable...but it plays in my head! )
8. Human Body : Pushing the Limit ( interesting...helps me in bio too! )
9. That's So Raven
10. Ned's Declassified

I can go on and on but I think I will stop here. Spare you your eyesight and spare me from missing "The Nanny!"

Till then!

Break

I survived my Add Maths paper.
For the first time.

Okay, so I answered ALL the questions but I feel my answers aren't exactly right. Oh well, what am I doing in a science class anyway? If I super know that I'm so not gonna go into the science line...then why take it? Shoot. I don't even blame it on peer pressure. I call it SELF-PRESSURE!!!

I seem to have songs in my head while doing my exams, really. Oh yeah, and fantasies of Joe Jonas. Like during my Add Maths, I was humming "The Best Damn Thing" by Avril Lavigne like over and over...haha, it didn't drive me nuts. I seriously think that Avril is such a phoney but I dunno why her songs are quite addictive. Don't like her, but I end up singing to it. WEIRD. All you Avril fans out there, don't get so TOUCHY.. if you do, go learn emotional intelligence!


Then Joe Jonas popped in during Sejarah and I had to take a little break from that hardcore, useless essay that I was writing and just let him float around my mind. Thinking about his smile, his voice, his hair, his shoulders....okay, stop it, cessa!


I hate exams.
Sigh...I guess I have to live with 'em till death do us part!

Exam bloopers and whimpers

Okay, so my exams have been great so far. It's just that I totally messed up my Biology paper 2 with that whole mangrove swamps thingy. It's just so annoying lah...cause I actually READ that thing the night before but thought that it won't be that important only to see the mangrove swamp waving at me the next day!

Shoot.

I'm quite confident for my Moral. As stupid as I think it is, I actually memorized all 36 and with the help of God, I managed to pen down everything! So lecer lah.. I just wish that moral wasn't a must-subject 'cause I don't see how it helps. Morality should start at home and not in the school exam!


Oh well, two more weeks then I'm FREE AT LAST!!!