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What if Peter Pan fell in love with Wendy?
What if she liked him back?

I don't know. I'm just waiting to see if those two fall for one another. Instead of continuing my Peter Pan last night, I started on a random story.

I continued writing after bible class and I almost lost my train of thought ( thanks to Mr. Taliban who disturbed me. JOSIAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! ). He did that once, while I was working on Peter Pan and I completely LOST my ideas. FOR GOOD!!! * dei, thanks a lot!!*

UGH, my life is so mundane.
Its all write, write, write, write.
Or piano, piano, piano and saturday mornings, the bass guitar.

Ooops. Peter Pan is calling!!!
Wonder if he is finally confessing is repressed affection for her!
HEEEEEEEE.

Ignore my babblings, why don't you just flip to the next blog!

You know what, I feel so tempted to drop SPM and earn my living through my writings.
Yeah, LIKE THAT'S GONNA HAPPEN!!!!

Kidding lah.

Well, its been a good three weeks and I'm finally spending some time with my books, seeing that my mid-terms are coming up. What I wish I had was a break. I'm in desperate need for a break. I have some workaholic tendencies that interrupts my sleep and I feel so worthless when I don't get a chance to write. I HATE WHEN I'M SUFFERING WRITER'S BLOCK. Its the worst feeling on earth!

Okay, you can flip to the next blog now, cause this ain't worth reading!


I was just watching American Dreams on TV and let me say that life was so much simpler in the 60s. Plus, I like the whole family-togetherness and the music. Good lah.

Ignore my babblings cause I'm so not in a good mood. Darcy has been invading my mind too much and how much I try to push that thought away, it still doesn't work. I've been brooding about it the past week and I hate having crushes!!
Yea, yea, its the nice feeling on earth but when you don't want it to happen, it pops into your mind.
Plus, it disrupts my whole single-successful-Big-Apple-life that I dream about.

Okay lah, stop it!!

Sigh.....

Its so sad that you have to keep thoughts of Darcy to yourself.
Because I would be ridiculed if people found out.
Good.
Then I'll just keep it to myself.

AMERICAN DREAMS.

Happy in there - for the first time!

Church was fun yesterday. For the first time.
I guess it was the 'five stones' that made it so fun.

First it was me against Anita and Hashah and then the group grew after the worship practice with Joshua, Sheralyn, Joanna, Ping, Josiah and Shammah. Let me say, that I finally had fun for the first time in Selayang.
What made it fun was that Shammah kept on cheating and started playing King instead of 1st stone, then Josiah had some funny difficulties doing the 4th stone. It was either too far, too high or he just couldn't catch it. *hahahaha*
Then Joanna was really funny while disturbing Sheralyn when it was her turn with random exclamations of "Char Kuey Teow!" and "Hah!"
Joshua had a few difficulties but then he survived the countless rounds of 2nd stone again and again. *so now you pro already, lah!*

Today at lunch ( first time having lunch with the Selayang group ), well, it was fun. I slightly burned my tongue, eating soup pan mee. I didn't even realise that my soya bean hadn't even arrived until the last minute.

So anyway, the Five Stones Tournament will be next Saturday, so people, don't sweat it cause I'M GONNA BE THE CHAMPION!!!!! WOO-HOOO!!!!!!!

Blah blah blah...

Have you ever felt like when you're finally fitting in with new people and then the next day you feel so left out again?

Let's hope that that doesn't happen tomorrow.


Btw, Josiah, I like your shirt! It's so retro!

Left Out and Trying to shield

Sometimes I have to tell myself that I should not fit in and stand out from the crowd but do you know that it gets lonely after a while?

Yesterday after church I was sitting at my place, alone, and was looking at the rest of the youths who were talking and hugging each other and a thought came to me :

" You were once like that. You once had friends that cared about your well-being and was always generous with hugs. You were once like that..."

But because of reasons, those friends aren't there anymore and I don't get to see them all the time. Although I try my best to gel in Selayang, but looks like I can't. When I compare it to KD, I see that I made the effort to make friends and they made an effort to get to know me. And within three months, we blended well and became close. But here in this new place, I try to make friends and socialize but its not happening the other way round. One word, SUPERFICIAL.

Yea, yea. They do talk but you can see the clique-ish-ness. Even during youth cell. Yea, its fun and all but it wasn't like KD when you had someone to laugh about with. Now, its like I'm there yet I'm not there.

The only thing I look forward in Selayang is the jam sessions on Saturday mornings. Firstly, my attention is fully occupied with the bass guitar and secondly, music is saturated in my head that I can't hear anyone who talks to me. Thats the privelege of being an auditory person.

I keep telling myself that Selayang is somewhere I will not dwell in for long. Maybe thats why I should keep a distance because once I'm fully independant, I can worship wherever I want. But still, I like being with people because I'm a people-person and I like knowing people's personalities and interests because being a writer, I incorporate a lot of my experiences with people in my writings. So meeting new people is kinda my thing.

Well, it won't be soon before long.
If Selayang is where God wants me to be in then so be it.
Looks like I've got to do that alone.
Although my heart is in another place.

An entry

Do you know whats the one thing I abhorr about myself?
That I can be so utterly rude and defiant to my parents.

Really. You should have heard me the past three days...I don't know why I've been such in a irritated mode that I just snap, snap and snap. And my poor mom kena the brunt of it.
Then today I apologised and I told het that I'm trying to be a better person.
The one thing I absolutely love about my mom is that she forgives me easily and is generous with her hugs. Plus, she's quite relaxed and doesn't harp on me much.

Thank God tomorrow is a HOLIDAY!

(its no holiday for you, you're stuck with tons and tons of Maths and Add Maths, so don't get so worked up!)

The Song Tag - AGAIN

Tagged by Taiki Renn Fujiwara

1. Put your Media Player on shuffle
2. For each question, hit the next button
3. Answer the question with the title of your song no matter how weird it is

What song will you play when you sleep?
Count Your Last Blessings - Sum 41

What will happen when it rains?
Ain't No Mountain High Enough - Sister Act ( gosh...I'm so 60s!! )

What happens when you do not sleep?
I Want It All - HSM3

Whats your ambition?
The Driveway -Miley Cyrus ( oh noooo...)

What do you say to your newlywed?
One Step At A Time - Jordin Sparks (okay????)

When you fart you say...
With Me - Sum 41

When someone kicks you, you say...
Scream - HSM3 ( Oh well, I do love to dramatise everything! )

What's the number after 50?
Fly On The Wall - Miley Cyrus

When you were born, what happened?
Life Is A Highway - Rascal Flatts ( I love this song!! )

What would you sing on your next birthday?
Seventeen Forever - Metro Station ( OMG....THIS IS SO TRUE!!!)

What will be your wedding march song?
Night Drive - All-American Rejects

What do your parents call you?
Born For This - Paramore ( Born to be the writer of the era! )

You hate it when...
crushcrushcrush - Paramore ( Oh well, that is kinda true)

You love it when...
Poor Unfortunate Souls - Jonas Brothers

Your next BF/GF will sing this song to you to as a confession...
Who I Am Hates Who I've Been - Relient K ( nice! Now I know if I should marry him or not )

Your best friend confesses that he/she likes you A LOT, you say...
Some Say - Sum 41

What do you say when your pet licks you?
Lucky - Jason Mraz ft. Colbie Caillat ( oh how I wish I had a cat! )

When you see the Jonas Brothers, what will you say?
Fearless - Taylor Swift

When your friends say hi, you...
From God Above - Hillsong United

Your friends say you're weird, you say...
Headlight Disco - Click Five

I hate doing this but... I tag all those who has touched a monument and seen a mummy
Which practically means, NO ONE.

Sweat and Tears : When will it all end??

Thank God that February is over.
I'm such a busy woman. Even my Physics tuition teacher said that.
All my Februaries ( is that the correct spelling for plural?) were taken up and I almost got sick because of all the stress.

I can admit that I'm a workaholic. And a perfectionist. And vain. And competitive. And a major procrastinator ( do you know how thick is my MATHS workload??)

I did some soul-searching during LTC and I found lots of things about myself ( and that I happen to be crushless right now. Thank GOD!! )

I cant believe that I thought that I crushed on a potential Darcy!! Arrogant, acting so superior and rude. Very rude.
And another un-interesting bookworm who acts like a 200-year-old!!!

Thank God that fever is over! It lasted like only four days.

Okay, enough about Mr. Know-It-All.

Five reasons why I'm so down:

1. I've got tons of Add Maths and Maths to be completed
2. I'm tired and wish that I didn't sign up for 11 subjects *salute Jem...again*
3. I wish I'm still in KD. I AM NOT GELLING PROPERLY IN SELAYANG!!!
4. I desperately want a MARS BAR right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5. I wish I could curl up and die from this stressful life.

Its, gonna be okay. I know.

I'm soooooooo tired.

Oh yeah, I seriously think some people should appreciate me more!

Pint-Points and Gratitude : Use your God-given minds, ok?

Its such a wonder that a small thing -like Sports Day- can potray people at their worst behaviour. Let me tell you what I have seen during the week as we neared the Sports Day:

1. Foolishness- People who break friendships because of a miscommunication that happened because of a teacher's fault. Utter Stupidity!!
2. Irresponsibility - When you're told to do something ( like get the caps before the rehearsal ) because you're the one responsible, then just do it. Don't wait till a crisis and then embarass the entire house in front of others!!
3. Brutality - Winning isn't everything, so you don't go around abusing your fellow team-mates just because YOU wanna win. Leadership is about others, not you! Ever heard of servant leadership??? Does that ring a bell to you?
4. Talking BIG - You want us to show some spirit, then you've gotta show it too...Other leaders encourage and potray the spirit instead of ordering others to do it but not doing it yourself. Ever heard of LEADERSHIP BY EXAMPLE????
5. Disrespect - Just because they deducted your discipline marks doesn't mean you have to throw a fit at that teacher and curse! What leadership is that? What example are you potraying?
6. Pessimism - Just because your team did not win, you don't have to hate the school so much and look at the glass half-empty. Hey, theres more to life than WINNING!
7. Immaturity - Someone seems to have a physical flaw ( smell...) doesn't mean that you have to gossip about her behind her back. Just tell her and then you don't have to suffer. You call yourselves PREFECTS but act like bimbos! I'll do the necessary and tell her since you prefects are so insecure!
8. Pride - It's reeking! No wonder I can't stand the smell!!!
9. Shallowness - Its so stupid to break friendships over boys!!! For the good and pure saint of the universe, boys aren't all that important right now!!
10. Insecurity - Everyone else is talking bad about the other just to make up for their insecurity... I've got three words : GROW UP, PEOPLE!!!!

I'm not posting this because I'm angry or anything. Firstly, I need to vent out, secondly, some of you really need to know what has been happening behind the scenes and thirdly, OUR SCHOOL IS IN DESPERATE NEED OF GOOD LEADERS!!!! Anyway, I am to be blamed also, so don't think I'm complaining about everything.

To those who have broken friendships, let me tell you that its no point risking a friendship for a school event. Think about it, its just SO STUPID!

Thank God that POPE house won! Thank YOU, GOD for answering my Prayers!

GO POPE HOUSE!!!