Reasons why I haven't been updating:
I can't believe my heart weighs a thousand pounds on Christmas Day.
That's what you get when somehow you feel that it might not work...
Don't ask, it kinda pulls my heartstring just by thinking about it
............
A. Attached or single? Single... No one can have me! YET.
B. Best friend? Neermala.
C. Cake or pie? I love both!!
D. Day of choice? Friday (it's that feeling of anticipation!! )
E. Essential item? My manuscript book...how am I gonna compose my symphonies without it??
F. Favorite color? Blue
G. Gummy bears or worms? Definitely worms!!
H. Hometown? Selayang... HOME SWEET HOME.
I. Favorite indulgence? Anything cakes and chocolates!!!
J. January or July? January..hey, I get to start all over again!!
K. Kids? Seeing miniature versions of myself?? Why Not??
L. Life isn't complete without? God and a piano, a guitar and imagination....and LOVE!!
M. Marriage date? Somewhere in February maybe?
N. Number of magazine subscriptions? I buy Seventeen and Reader's Digest almost every month...if that counts??
O. Oranges or apples? Apples!
P. Phobias? LIZARDS!!!!!!!!! EEEEEEKKKK!!!!
Q. Quotes? My Physics teacher once said that "Physics is something you can see..you just have to open your eyes and LOOK!!! " - of course she said it in her broken english way lah!! -
R. Reasons to smile? Christmas and a WHITE GRAND PIANO...
S. Season of choice? We have summer every year!! What's there to choose??
T. Tag 10 people. 10? Looks like anybody whose everybody has been tagged!! No one then...heheh.
U. Unknown fact about me? I can go a week without washing my hair! How's that??
V. Vegetable? I hate mushroom!!!
W. Worst habit? Repeating words over and over without reason... it drives my mom crazy "CESSA!!!! STOP BEING A BROKEN RECORD!!! "
X. X-ray or ultrasound? I don't think I need those right now..
Y. Your favorite foods? Definitely Pizza!!
Z. Zodiac sign? Gemini.... but I don't believe in those anyway!
He/she have to come up with 7 interesting or random facts about them self and then tag 7 other people to do the same.
1. I once went four days without bathing!! How do you like me now??
2. I hate guys who act cool... umm hello?? I'm not stupid, you know!!
3. Whenever I wear my Phantom mask for no reason, I start to feel some kind of power and I burst into random anger and end up banging my fist against the wardrobe ( SCARY!! )
4. Did you know that I wore one pair of school socks for a whole week??
5. I've had mean racist comments fired at me in school and at A CHRISTIAN YOUTH CAMP because of the colour of my skin... How shallow can you be?? So what if I'm chocolate???
6. I had an imaginary friend when I was five.
7. Some people hate me for the principles I believe in.
DONE!
I've got a pocketful of sunshine!
I found this video quite cute.
HSM3 bloopers but I have this feeling that it was made-up and practised.
But anyway...still its kinda cute.
:P
I seriously think that the world would be a better place if people practiced the ARK ( Acts of Random Kindness )
Yesterday I had a rather fun youth cell watching all the camp photos. Joanna and I laughed A LOT ( especially pictures of Peter ( Yong ) and Jessica ( Kan ) TOGETHER!!! ) *love is in the air...*
I'm dying for a slice of thai seafood pizza...
I LOVE LUCAS GRABEEL ( gonna watch "Return to Halloweentown" later :) YAY!! )
I'm missing my grandmother...hoping to see her tommorow.
MY DAD'S BIRTHDAY IS TOMMOROW!!!!! 8TH DECEMBER
Judith...you're my source of inspiration!!
I feel like pinching Kimberly's cheeks for no reason :P
I'm hoping HE'LL buzz me *smack carissa's face!! slap her hard! *
Waiting for a family holiday... ( Pa, what happened to our Penang trip??? )
SPM is making me sick ( why not I just stick to the plan of dropping out and earning my living as a pianist in a local pub or something??? )
" And I was thinking of places that I could hide..." *wink Neer*
I miss Phantom ( not the musical, but HIMSELF. One chance for me to BE A MAN!! )
I'm already boring you..so just flip to the next blog LAH!!!
I FEEL LIKE AS THOUGH SOMEONE YANKED MY HEART RIGHT OUT, SQUEEZED IT TILL EVERY DROP OF BLOOD OOZED OUT, STEPPED ON IT A FEW TIMES AND FORCED IT BACK IN...
I'M SORRY ...
YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE
I'm soooo happy that I finally went shopping!!
Don't mind my uncivilised behaviour ( I only get to go shopping ONCE A YEAR )
Besides, its not shopping ONCE.. its like a few times in December.
Like last year, I went to 1 UTAMA almost ten times just to get shoes, clothes and new accessories!!
My first shopping on Friday, I bought :
1. A white jacket ( which was on 20% discount!! )
2. Ballet pumps ( 50% off!!!!!!!!! )
3. This ultra bling necklace of a diamante high-heeled shoe ( 10% off!! )
I can't wait for the next trip!
Like how most of you must have enjoyed your day, I had to go to school.
Another picture that I found nice!
HAHA..SO PERASAN!
My holidays have been going really fine.
I'm so happy that I finally went to Pavillion and The Gardens. OMG...total fashion city lah! Plus, I bought temporary highlight sprays so my hair is in green and red ( can't wait for CHRISTMAS!! )
Yesterday I went to watch Madagascar 2. Okay lah but the first was definitely better! Like always...except for The Cheetah Girls. I loved the second one cause it was so nice ( I didn't get to see the third movie!!! ) plus, their vocals are like hundred times better than all those HSM singers!
:P
Then theres the whole cheesecake-fudge thingy. I'm like telling myself to calm down and WAIT!!! cause I've got SPM next year...then theres music school ( ICOM or UCSI hopefully ).
It's soo hard to keep those feelings aside cause you really wish that he will...
never mind.
He's doing the right thing and I really respect and look up to him a lot. Maybe you know...it might just work!
HAHAHA...
Plus, you know...the possibility of suddenly finding other people better than ourselves...
Those are the times I wish that time moved really fast.
I'm just lovesick lah, okay??
HEHEHEHEHE..
Can't wait for CHRISTMAS!!!
I was just searching through the web for tips on a self-makeover.
For me, it's not just about the externals but I want to focus on my personality and spiritual growth.
I strongly believe that a person is not just whole on the outside ( come on, you can look like BradPitt/Kim Kardashian but have a mind like a three year old! ) but on the inside as well.
Too bad people are so caught up with tons and tons of beauty measures that they forget about their excessive anger issues and their blatant ignorance to whats around them! ( I can admit that I am also guilty -except for the anger issue part- ). Don't get me wrong. LOOKS ARE JUST AS IMPORTANT AS WHAT'S INSIDE....EXCEPT THAT ITS THE INSIDE THAT MATTERS MOST.
Well..I found these tips for the physical side of the makeover. Just read through.
Step1
Work on improving your attitude towards yourself. Learn to be more self-confident and happy with yourself.
Step2
Go through your closet and sort out those old clothes to begin your makeover. If your clothes are too tight, too loose, or worn and tattered get rid of them. Buy clothes that fit like they were made just for you and are stylish.
Step3
Shop for shoes. It's time to replace those shoes that are worn out and faded. Step into a shoe store and try on some new styles. Ask someone to help you decide what looks good on you if you need help.
Step4
Change you hairstyle. A fresh cut and maybe some high-lights can do wonders for the self-esteem. Look through magazines and ask a friend to give an opinion about the style you choose.
Step5
Buy new makeup. Select tones that are right for your skin color. Use the color guides in the stores or book a consultation with a beauty expert.
Step6
Treat yourself to a manicure and pedicure during your makeover. Be careful, this personalized treatment can spoil you.
Step7
Eat healthy since beauty comes from within. Take good care of your health and your skin by eating right and getting plenty of exercise. The new you will look and feel terrific.
Oh well, I gotta get started!
P.S. Can't wait for Christmas!!! ( JOY TO THE WORLD THAT THE SILENT NIGHT IS HERE IN THE WINTER WONDERLAND!! )
Get it?
Never mind...if its too lame for you
:P
Tagged by Kimberleeeeee......
Must be the 'TAG' season.
Instructions:
Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italicize the statements that you wish were true.
Leave the fibs alone.
Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.
I’m 170cm tall.
I don’t know what I want at the moment.
I’m not happy.
I hate my friends.
I hate my life.
I hate my grades.
I’m bored of driving.
I have a white handbag
I love dancing.
I go clubbing every week.
Shopping is bull****. ( I'm a very civilised person, if you don't already know! )
I have a tattoo of a star.
I got my navel pierced.
I have friends that take drugs.
90% of my friends smoke.
I still hang out with my ex, even though our break up was rather nasty.
I’m studying Fashion.
I have a business running.
I hate cartoons. ( Except Phineas and Ferb! Call me childish, but I love them! )
I hate someone.
I have 10 Guess handbags.
I buy CLEO every month.
My parents don’t know about my blog.
I have an iPod.
I don’t have faith in the current “one”.
My school mates know about my blog.
I wanted to be a fashion designer.
I love rock emo bands.
I hate it when people cancel last minute meet ups
I’m a rebel
I’m starting to like wearing dresses
I don’t believe in love.
High school's filled with drama
My parents have faith in me.
I’ve bought shoes this month.
A blogger bitched about me before.
I hate sports.
I heart Italian food.
I hate meeting new people. {au contraire}
I hate nail polish
The mother bear gives me hugs.
People should start appreciating me.
High school was the worst time of my life.
I have red hair.
One Utama is my second home
I’m a guy.
I’m scared of my Biology exam
I hate vacations.
We’ll last
I’m going to get high and smoke weed one day soon.
I’ve robbed an old lady.
I’m starting to like applying make-up
I was a tomboy.
I love bitching about people behind their backs
I still have a best friend
I have a cat.
I hate surprise parties.
I hate planning parties.
I’m hot.
I’m a sinner.
I’ve got a DS light.
I have a Wii.
I can live without music. ( HELLO?? I LIVE FOR MUSIC! )
Video games are a waste of time
I miss the father bear.
I love being in love ( I've never been in love....just fell into it a few times! )
I know how to cook
I have 100% freedom.
Boys are assholes.
I hate Math.
I love horror movie.
I’m happy with what I have
I slept in my parents’ room for 3 days after watching Scream when I was a kid.
Blogging is a waste of time.
I hate animals.
I can’t live without make-up.
I curse like a pirate.
I’m happy with my 11 year old car.
I hate people that are smart. ( no lah..just joking!! )
I love Apple Juice
I believe that everyone in their teens have lost their virginity.
I’ve got a new phone. ( I'm happy with mine )
I’m going to get a new pair of shoes by the end of this month.
I love swimming.
I haven’t worked out since March.
I love my friends and family.
I TAG
I went to FGA Selayang for service today.
My parents are already blending in, my sister is just nonchalant about it and I....
I'm waiting for one and a half years to pass in a blink.
I practically wasn't much of a cheery-cheery like how I always am. I just cruised through worship, sermon and during refreshments, I just smiled forcefully. Until Patricia, Manjula, Joanna and Jessica came to talk to me and asked me to go for their youth camp.
I'm not going for it.
It's gonna be so nostalgic to go back to Golden Sands when I went for camp this year!
So I'll just pass.
SIGH...
BIGGER SIGH...
I miss everyone back in KD!!!
Especially Kim, Jin Yin, Diane and Jem!!
They were the people who always put a smile on my face and helped me through the painful break-up last year...plus, they supported me in my Musical and during the camp when I was emo-ing because of you-know-who and told me to forget about it. Well, Peter also contributed in that sense.
They were the definition of "TRUE FRIENDS".
One and a half years to go.
Seems so far away.
Throughout the months that I've been blogging, I can say that there have been times that I've been blessed just by reading their blogs.
Last night I had this NIGHTMARE that T-Pain met me on one the KL sidewalks and we started talking then ended up baking cupcakes in A RANDOM BAKERY.
What the.... ( as how Sonia will go )
When my alarm rang ( Gimme! Gimme! Gimme! by ABBA ) I got up in a start.
T-Pain baking with me?
I laughed my way to the bathroom.
I don't like rappers anyway.
I don't even know how that guy looks like! But in the NIGHTMARE, he was all '' Hi, I'm T-Pain"
WEIRD....
So that NIGHTMARE really caught me off-guard.
So bored.
Stuck in tuition waiting for Chem to start.
Just flip to the next blog!
Yay, I finally watched HSM3. Like how Kim said, it was nothing to shout about but I still loved the dance moves and the sight of Ryan Evans!!!!! I seem to have this thing towards guys who can sing and play music.
But I'm not boy crazy so you (guys who sing and play instruments) don't have to run away from me. It's just nice to share something you both love with someone who has the same passion for it.
And for me, it's music and literature.
But one thing I learned from HSM3 is AVOID LOVE AFFAIRS DURING HIGH SCHOOL.
I mean, look at the emotional struggles Troy and Gabriella had to go through because of the pain of separation!! But as how Disney always puts it.... "And they lived happily ever after!"
And yes, the singing did improve. I personally enjoyed "Now or Never" and "Can I Have This Dance". The one I liked most was "I Want It All" cause it was so Broadway-ish and RYAN EVANS WAS IN IT!!!!!!!!! plus it was colourful. Except the pinkness was too much for me.
Theres a difference between Ryan Evans and Lucas Grabeel.
DUH!
I don't mind watching it the second time, though!
"Win a part
Think bigger!
Become superstars
That's better
Don't you see that bigger is better
And better is bigger
A little bit is never enough
No, No, No! "
Since I've got absolutely the foggiest idea of what I want to blog about, I'll just do the tag.
3. Why do you like that picture?
Firstly..because it's my family of cousins, my mom and an uncle who all think they're superheroes. I love it when we are all silly and having such fun!
4. When was the last time you ate pizza?
Oh...I had it for LARNCH!!!! YUMMMMYYYYY
5. The last song you listened to?
"Just Dance" by Lady GaGa feat. Colby O'Donis
6. What are you doing right now besides this?
Chatting with Taiki Renn Fujiwara.... hehehehehehe
7. What name would you prefer besides yours?
Er...I have always liked my name. Except when people used to make fun of it!
People to tag:
8. Who is number one?
Baby Love (or flirt?). one of my best pals!
9. Number 3 is having a relationship with?
I seriously don't know. Maybe a certain white guy, perhaps??? No lah, was just JOKING!
10. Say something about number 5
He's a different kind of person. Definitely one-of-a-kind! Oh yes, very fashionable and a budding singer-songwriter... has a great smile! *you better thank me after this! hahaha..hey, but i meant it okay??*
11. How about number 4?
I love her so much!!!! She's a fun and bubbly girl. Someone I can confide in and be silly with while laughing my heart out when we're chatting. Gonna miss you so much!!
12. Who is number 2?
Kim Koh. Somebody who has really shown me what a true friend really is. She's a number one fan of JONAS BROTHERS!!! And someone who I can still rely on have fun with. I LOVE YOU!!!!
There. Done!!
-Finis-
Yes. I haven't blogged for some time. Too busy with the holidays and the Facebook. Waiting for next year to go by as a breeze because...
I DON'T WANT TO SIT FOR SPM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CRY.
CRY SOME MORE.
NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay, okay. I shall ease on the drama.
Next year will be my last year in St. Mary
WHOOOP-DEE-DOOO!!!!
I really don't know what to blog about.
Oh well, I have been suffering writer's block for two weeks already!
Must be it.
Been so busy with my Facebook that I didn't have time to post.
Oh well........
All the best to SPM students.
God Bless You!
:P
I've been begging my mom to take me for the past week. Well, like how most of you went with your friends, I decided to take my mom because both of us are musical fans ( come on lah, from "Grease", "Sound of Music" era to " HSM", "Hairspray", "Mamma Mia!", we've both enjoyed musicals!!!!!!!!! ) OOOOHHHHHH..... I Can't Wait!
My favourite is "Now or Never". So much willpower, adrenaline , and "SEMANGAT!" *even their cheerleaders are better off compared to ahem, ahem....*
Just what I really need!
Oh, finally it connected!
Yay, today is practically the last day of exam and only Sejarah ( paper 1 - no biggie ) and Bible Knowledge.
Then I'm FREE AT LAST!!!!
I'm gonna do lots of things after exam-despite studying for SPM next year (yawn...)- and I am SO NOT looking forward to attending "the other church". I mean, I have so many great friends over at KD and we have bonded so well and grown closer. Suddenly, I have to up and LEAVE!!! OHHHH....I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!
I don't like leaving people who have made an impact in my life. And I really think that I will not fit in as a youth in "the other church". When my dad announced his decision, I was like "NO WAY I'M LEAVING!!!!" but still being under their care and shelter, do I look like I have a choice????
My last Christmas in KD. After two years, I cannot bear the thought of leaving.
I just can't *weep*
I sometimes think that I made a mistake in being a prefect.
Whoa...whats a goody-two-shoes like me saying such things?
Well, if you're gonna say 'I-told-you-so' in just a splitsecond, then I shall just pretend that the wall just talked to me. I mean, I hate those four words! Like the time when I broke up with YL last year, my dad was all "See? I told you it won't work out right? Listen lah, next time" and I was like growling at my dad for saying it since it was almost similar to it. Oh well, thanks dad. I really meant it.
My dirty secret in being a prefect is that sometimes I just want to rebel. Like the time I ... ( I don't want to say further incase it might hurt my rep) There are times that I just want to go up to Pn. Ganaser and say that I want to quit.
When I was in freshman year, I didn't know why the hoot I was idolizing prefetcs and wishing I was like them. Then as the years went on, I GREW UP. I wanted to be who I was and I know who I am is not a prefect. I don't like being clamped. Being a spirited artist ( writing, that is ) I suddenly saw the world in a different way and not how I used to gawkishly. I look at myself sometimes and I'm like "Eh cessa! When did you start being so liberal and rebellious?"
I mean, I 'm not like the type that are the kurang ajar kind of rebel but the type that rebels inside. I internalize it and be emo and after a while, I'm okay. Thank God for that. I wouldn't want to rebel so much till I have forgotten my spiritual roots.
I've always been a goody-goody. Let people rule over me and boss me around too much ( I mean, authouritative people are exempted ) till I sometimes forget that I have a life too! People my age sometimes see me as weird 'cause I may be different. I know, 'cause I have overheard some things.....so I'm like 'Okay, since you think I'm so freaky and all...don't bother being a "friend" '
Prefect or not prefect?
I still don't know.
Oh well, I am praying about it and I'll see what HE has to say about the issue lah.
I've read the book and it was awesome! Well, if you're not the romantic-cum-suspense type...then don't bother watching the movie when it comes out! :P
Can't Wait!
I seem to think that my exams are over. Instead of studying, I'm watching way too much TV, reading, listening to music and playing with my cousin Rhianna. Oh yeah, she's a handful but I can handle her. Maybe thats why young kids flock over my sister all the time. Ha!
I think its like almost 2 a.m. and I'm still online. Oh well, I only get that kind of privellege when I'm in my uncle's place. He's quite cool about it. My parents are more strict when it comes to the internet... ( um..hello? I'm not allowed to watch YouTube, you know! ) 'cause of all the influence out there. Oh well, I'm with my cousins sleepover at my uncle's place and well...they're asleep.
Except me.
Ooops, battery dying.
Will blast back in 20.
Top ten songs I can listen to over and over again:
Top ten books I LURVVEEE!!!:
Top ten criterias I like in a guy:
Top ten THINGS I wish I had:
Top Ten Celebrities I hate the most!!:
Top ten things I weirdly do:
Top Ten foods I love:
Top Ten Fave TV Shows:
I can go on and on but I think I will stop here. Spare you your eyesight and spare me from missing "The Nanny!"
Till then!
I survived my Add Maths paper.
For the first time.
Okay, so I answered ALL the questions but I feel my answers aren't exactly right. Oh well, what am I doing in a science class anyway? If I super know that I'm so not gonna go into the science line...then why take it? Shoot. I don't even blame it on peer pressure. I call it SELF-PRESSURE!!!
I seem to have songs in my head while doing my exams, really. Oh yeah, and fantasies of Joe Jonas. Like during my Add Maths, I was humming "The Best Damn Thing" by Avril Lavigne like over and over...haha, it didn't drive me nuts. I seriously think that Avril is such a phoney but I dunno why her songs are quite addictive. Don't like her, but I end up singing to it. WEIRD. All you Avril fans out there, don't get so TOUCHY.. if you do, go learn emotional intelligence!
Then Joe Jonas popped in during Sejarah and I had to take a little break from that hardcore, useless essay that I was writing and just let him float around my mind. Thinking about his smile, his voice, his hair, his shoulders....okay, stop it, cessa!
I hate exams.
Sigh...I guess I have to live with 'em till death do us part!
Okay, so my exams have been great so far. It's just that I totally messed up my Biology paper 2 with that whole mangrove swamps thingy. It's just so annoying lah...cause I actually READ that thing the night before but thought that it won't be that important only to see the mangrove swamp waving at me the next day!
Shoot.
I'm quite confident for my Moral. As stupid as I think it is, I actually memorized all 36 and with the help of God, I managed to pen down everything! So lecer lah.. I just wish that moral wasn't a must-subject 'cause I don't see how it helps. Morality should start at home and not in the school exam!
Oh well, two more weeks then I'm FREE AT LAST!!!
