The meow from the exit

"Sigh...lots of dishes to wash! Thank God many people are out on holiday, if not I don't know if I can finish this pile!"
Meow.
Meow.
Did I just hear that? Nah, I'm probably dreaming.
Meow.
Meow.
OK, I better check it out that noise since I'm such a cat-lover. Who knows maybe it isn't Shammah going wild??
Walk two steps. Out of the kitchen and reach back exit staircase.
GASP!!!!
OMG, what a cute little cat! *smile* held by another cute person *ahem*
SO CUTE!!!!!
"See who I found", you smile at me, holding him.
So I walk towards you and go on to touch the little fella while you sit down at the steps.
In silence, we stroke its fur and found out it was a male cat.
Behind me, I hear a camera snap.
Oh...Shammah at it again. Probably will appear on facebook then the whole world will start teasing again. *rolls eyes*
Silence, I don't know what to say.
Been dreaming about this moment for quite some time.
Just enjoy it.
3...
2...
1...


:-)

2010 - yoohooo!!!

It feels great to be back on my feet! Thank God that I decided to let Him take the wheel of my life. Since I'm not living my life as how it should be, I might as well give God a chance, right?

I'm all excited for 2010. Although I'm still looking and enquiring for part-time jobs, I will not let that rob me of a good 3 months of learning, growing and maturing before I head off to HELP for my foundation course (I think its confirmed already though I'm still praying about it) probably in April/May. According to my dad, college life is really going to question my beliefs and my principles, if I'm not careful, I might fall into the "mold" and be highly influenced by the "party-like-a-rockstar" lifestyle and the "if-you've-got-it-flaunt-it" lifestyle.

Although I'm a girl, I still might accidently place my eyes on something too revealing since I heard that girls in HELP have not enough fabric on their body (if you get what I mean). Gosh, I don't know how some girls have the guts to dress up so trashy and skimpy. Its seriously dispicable (no offense!)

Anyway, back to my point. I'm really excited to go for more Scripture Union camps, leadership camps, youth conferences and writer's camps. Its gonna be awesome! Plus, to really get involve in church activities and other projects. Like the upcoming plans of the Lifehouse skit for Easter.

Wow, and more baking! Yay! Finally I can go back to perfecting my cookies and pies that I haven't touched the whole year because of the dreaded exam. And of course, DRIVING LESSONS!! Though I'm not so hot for it yet. That can wait :-)

RANDOM: Gosh, I need some watermelons.


I've got so many books to read and lots of stories to write. I've been writing my Peter Pan fan-fics and hoping for more inspiration for short stories. I can finally go back to being "Miss Austen".

But most of all, I want my spiritual life to build up. The Lord has been doing great things in my life and I've learnt so many lessons throughout this whole year. I yearn to see more of His glory and experience His everlasting love because that's the only love that can satisfy the longing on my heart. I will make the most of my single life serving the Lord and others, hopefully without entanglements.

Blessed New Year, everyone!

"Watching the snow falling to the ground, the little girl beams excitedly while watching the ice rink on full swing with skaters and children making snow angels. Downstairs, the scrumptious aroma of chocolate chip cookies greet her pink little nose. Inhaling the wonderful scent, she looks up into the baby blue sky...
Thank you Lord, for this awesome day.
I LOVE YOU..."

Blessed Christmas, everyone!
Enjoy all the blessings the Lord has blessed you with and have a great 2010 ahead!!

:-)

smile bright!

Just for Kicks

A few pictures that brought smiles on my face:


The multi-racial, happy and jolly family I once had :-)

Two and a half men?

L-R: Shammah, Samuel ( poking in between), Josiah

Three pretty people and the nerd in green. Always the odd one out!

L-R: PING, Joanna, me, Alie

Franklin Morais's two pretty ladies and his nerdy disciple ;-)

L-R: me, Mom, Rachel

RANDOM: I'm not in the mood for pan mee.

Pillows, anyone??

I've lost inspiration to write.

I've lost interest in reading.

I've lost the mood to talk to cheery-cheery people cause right now I'm very emo-emo.

All I do is just house work so my thoughts will be far away.

All I do is stare at the cold morning and wait for the sun to rise.

All I do is hear no sound. Just the stillness of the moment.

All I do is just rely and wait on God.

My heart has frozen up, leaving me without emotion.

When I look at pictures of apple pies, tears fill up my eyes.

When I browse through old photos, my heart cracks.

When I hear songs from the 60s, my mind dies.

Yet in quietness, I seek the Lord because I know He will give me rest.

Yet in obedience, I will still surrender my heart to God because He is greater than my heart.


"Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light"
Matthew 11:28-30



I miss You.

The Oozing Ache

Two individuals, very much in love with each other but because now isn't the right time for a union, they have decided to wait. Which means;

1. Less contact with one another
2. Treating each other as brothers and sisters in Christ
3. Waiting on the Lord
4. Persistent prayer
5. Dying to self

Number 1 is the hardest, Number 2 is somewhat OK, Number 5 is the killer.

Questions like these run in my head: What if we're destined for one another? What if God has someone else for us? What if God is calling us to live a single life? What if others are not open to a mixed-race union? What if this union isn't the Lord's will?

Again and again, Galatians 2:20 strikes me hard on the head with a thwonk!

GOD IS IN CONTROL. That's where number 3 and 4 and 5, come into the picture. On the other hand, there are these bunch of feelings that want to take control and somehow tries to persuade you to "follow your heart" and dive into a relationship when your brain is clearly screaming at you to wait and to do the right thing.

"The right thing at the wrong time is the wrong thing" - Joshua Harris

Still, its HARD! Sometimes I just want to get on my knees and cry out loud to the Lord, "God, WHY??????????" and then rip up all my poems that I have delicately written about this young man and throw them away from my sight. For the life of me, I can't seem to figure out my affections toward this young man, for I can't comprehend the thought of a life without him. Oh how my tears flow in the melancholy idea!!

Yet, the Lord, in His grace, will continue to comfort us as we ponder on this issue because we know we're not alone. I'm sure he's feeling the same way about it too and is probably more worried about how the future will turn out, he being a thinker and me having all kinds of emotions since I'm such a feeler. Sighhhh...

Okay then. Looks like theres no conclusion in this matter for now, so I'll just leave this matter hanging and continue to wait on the Lord.

Love is patient. So wait, cessa!! :-)

A Message To A Lady

The LORD speaks in a quiet and gentle manner,
"Draw close to me,
Let Me strengthen you with My right hand,
Though you walk in a world of iniquity,
you shall not fall,
For I will take your hand and walk with you,
And whisper words of truth and love into your ear

For I have created you a woman,
Fearfully and wondefully made,
For I carved your curves, your hair, your breasts,
Skillfully in secret because I saw you first,
Be in a quiet and gentle spirit,
That is precious in My sight,,
And serve me as how I have shaped you

My beloved woman,
You can never comprehend,
How wide, how deep and how great
My love is for you
Love Me, Serve Me, Follow Me."


taken from my quiet time, 17th Dec 2009, 11.25 pm.